In the summer of 2003, I was sitting with a couple of women friends and we were discussing various things of a spiritual nature. One of the women who was particularly in tune, said she perceived a man and a boy’s spirit present in the room. I felt that it was my grandfather, and the next child I was to have. I felt him say that this was Michael, and he was very special. He also let me know that he was with the family and was within their care.
It was not until the fall of 2005 that I actually became pregnant with Michael. The day I found out I was pregnant I literally danced for joy! I had known he was coming for a number of years and was so anxious to have him. I could feel he was pleased I wanted him so much. Yet, in the ensuing weeks, I could feel a sadness about him. I did not understand why. I tried to focus on him and figure out why he was not happy, but it was difficult getting in tune while dealing with morning sickness.
In the beginning of February, I was feeling much better. At that time, I finally received the answer I had been looking for. I was told by a friend who could see and talk to spirits, that Michael was grateful I was going to be his mother and that he was sad because he had been aborted a few years prior by another woman. Now he had been reassigned to me. I was informed that he would probably be a difficult child with emotional issues, and that I would need to raise him knowing the Lord. I was not terribly shocked, actually I was more relieved to understand why had felt the way I did, but I was concerned about having an emotionally difficult child. I had one already that was difficult, and this being my fifth child, I was not sure I could handle another one. Yet with information comes understanding and possible solutions to problems.
About a month later I was pondering the situation right before going to bed. I felt impressed to pray for Michael. Through the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, I was given the words to pray for him so that, through Christ, he could release his feelings of abandonment, rejection, trauma and fear. I prayed that he would see his previous mother through the eyes of the Savior and feel his love for her so he could forgive her. I felt him let go of the negative emotions and forgive. As he did so, I could feel his spirit getting lighter as a sweet sense of relief came over him. I also prayed he would forgive his previous father and the doctor who performed the abortion. This was not as intense as the forgiveness of his mother, but I felt it was important. I believe it is important to come to earth as unencumbered by grief and trauma as possible and I wanted Michael to have the healthiest and happiest start to his life with us as he could. As the prayer continued, I could feel the Savior’s love for Michael. I felt him bless him with specific spiritual gifts to help him with his mission in this life.
Finally, the time came to give birth. Michael showed signs of distress, and consequently was born by C-section. Within the weeks following I prayed to understand why he was born this way. I was given the impression that he had experienced enough trauma and was being spared a difficult birth. I believe this healing process has altered what could have been a difficult and frustrating childhood. At the time of this writing Michael is almost 4 months old and he couldn’t be a sweeter, happier baby. I am grateful beyond words for the Savior’s intervention and healing of my sweet son.
Update 2011: Michael has been a wonderful, sweet and easy going child. The only effects I can see from the trauma he experienced is that he is a bit more fearful and cautious than my other children. He is almost five.